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all my games are pretty short. a lot of them are autobiographical or otherwise personal, and, at this point, i'd say most of my published games are probably bitsy games. often, my goal with my games is to make something that feels "good" or "right" to me, and that concept or feeling is not static. i sometimes go in and edit old games when what i want from them has changed. none of my games are intended to be read as "empathy games."

games:

bitsies and bitsy-likes
- candle wax was made for the candles bitsy jam in december 2020.
- nightlight is a bipsi game and was made for the bipsi launch jam in august 2021.
- destruction myth is also a bipsi game and was made for the creation myth bipsi jam in november 2021.
- i will not survive you was made for the bad weather bitsy jam in april 2023. it's part of indiepocalypse #46.
- moving on was made for the unfinished business bitsy jam in march 2020.
- cloud watching was made for the clouds bitsy jam in january 2021.
- hey girlie!! xx is about making friends on the internet (or my favorite way to respond to scammers online). it was made in may 2021.
- dead asleep was made for the sleepy bitsy jam in late november/early december 2021.
- three stories from space was made as part of bitsy secret santa 2021.
- the kellen valley library pen pal program was made for the overdue library books bitsy jam in may 2021.
- god why am i awake was part of volume 13 of my zine "maybe i'll figure it out next month," which was a monthly zine that started in june 2018, and ended in june 2019. volume 13 was the last volume and came out in june 2019.
- engine rats was from volume 11 of "maybe i'll figure it out next month," which came out in april 2019.
- exploding is a small, abstract, stream-of-consciousness bitsy game from february and then april 2020.
- i love your compound eyes is a short love poem made for the pollinators bitsy jam in august 2022.
- fruit loops milk is a game poem about rats and cars made for the loops bitsy jam in july 2022.
(published) games made as a student
- escort yourself out was made in 2018, as part of an undergraduate thesis project. it's inspired by escort mission games. in the game, you escort your (my) 12-year-old self through triggering environments. it was a selection of the dreamhack atlanta 2019 student game showcase.
- in my friend carrie's car was also made in 2018, as part of the same undergrad thesis project. it's a text-based game about driving one town over to buy some plants and reflecting on a period of about five years. it was inspired by things like journaling and narrative formation.
- this is just a normal, run-of-the-mill walking simulator and everything is fine, don't worry about it was made as the final project for a class. it was made in 2017 and in early 2020 it was part of video game art gallery's "system link: video game as memoir" exhibition.
- home alone was made as a week-long class assignment in 2017. it's a "trying to respond to notifications while dealing with fatigue from depression" simulator.
games made with others
- 1 year out is a game about four recent college graduates adjusting to some changes in their lives. it was made in 2019 for a game jam, but we didn't quite finish it in time to submit it. i worked on the game with very talented people ghoulbroth, jonny hopkins, Kelly Weng, and Erica Cherrington. i did most of the writing, as well as some narrative design stuff.
- color collector is a little thing made with Erica Cherrington in 2018 while we were learning pico-8.
flickgames
- anymore is a short little flickgame poem from april 2022.
- epic skellyton fashion is a little skellington dress-up flickgame where, for one beautiful and brief moment, you get to pretend you're a skellyton getting dressed up in the most coolest outfit imaginable. it was made in march 2022.
- matches is a flickgame flipbook animation from march 2022.
- peaches is a flickgame poem or moment from march 2022.
- some plants is an archive of some of the plants i used to just sort of find around out in the wild and eat, from march 2022.
- windmill is a tiny little dream sequence from march 2022.
- sleeping through the day again is a sleep cycle from march 2022, for some reason not published until dec 2023.
other
- to the ends of each of my fingers is a twine game-poem and a reflection on past selves, potential futures, bodies, and touch.
- happy new years is little thing i made in... 2019??? based on a little new years ritual of mine. i moved it over to itchio in early 2020, apparently.
- raining in davis is another little thing made in 2018 while learning pico-8.
- found wanting is a zine made with electric zine maker about trying to relearn how to want things.
- pdf is a beautiful name for a baby girl is a games manifesto type thing, made for but not submitted to manifesto jam 2022.
- sweet distraction is a zine made with electric zine maker about time passing.
games in progress
- fabric is a game that's been paused for a long time. i worked on it a bit during an artist residency in 2018. it's about being trapped on the floor of a closet under a pile of old clothes. it's also about my relationship with old clothes being in recovery from an eating disorder.
- supernatural girlfriend anniversary date night simulator has been paused since october 2020. it's a ren'py game. all the art assets are illustrations i did based on old public domain artwork.
- what it felt like to be here is a bitsy game i've been working on some since 2021, cataloging elements from different places i've lived in the last couple years. each room has ambient audio i made with a bunch of stuff from freesound.org that i combined to try to recreate the ambient noise of that living space.
- speed dating for weirdos and freaks ONLY is a dating sim i started for an ms paint game jam but didn't finish in time and have since paused. the premise is that i, violet bignastytruck, know you've been having trouble meeting somebody so i am gonna set you up on some dates.
- forest spirits is a game about a journey to get your deepest questions answered.

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